Terrifying, but true. It seems Himself and I are going to be parents in 2010. This is a mix of elating, unbelievable and confusing. On one hand, I've wanted this for a very long time. On the other, it's hard to process the reality. For the first weeks we knew I was holding my breath, waiting until we passed that first trimester to feel 'safe', given my past history of miscarriage. The day we started to share the news with our extended family was the day I started bleeding. I was convinced we'd lost the baby, and surprised beyond all belief to see a wiggling, happy baby on the ultrasound the next day (complete with heartbeat). Since then I've been bleeding off and on, feeling less secure than ever about the pregnancy. I've been on doctor-ordered bed rest, off it, and am now back in bed after bleeding again.
The epic changes our lives are about to go through are intimidating, but I can't wait. It's the start of a whole new chapter, a completely different set of life experiences, and something impossible to predict. I'm preparing in my usual geekish way by reading everything I can get my hands on, knowing full well that I won't 'get it' until the reality is here. Still, it's the closest I can come to controlling any aspect of this journey, and even that is comforting at this stage.
So please meet Bubble Baby, the small alien creature currently growing inside me. It's not a particularly clear photo, and does little to convince me that this is not similar to the alien that grew inside Sigourney Weaver. Time will tell.
4 comments:
So exciting, Miss Lefa, so exciting, scary & cool. I can't imagine how scary it must be but I offer my own shaky beginning as reason for hope - my mum had eight miscarriages before she had me & spent eight of the nine months she was pregnant on doctor ordered bed rest. & here I am :)
So have hope, have REST & I'm sending all my love & strength to your little bubble.
Most anticipated release of 2010 - way better than Twilight 2. xxx
Honey you tw will be beautiful parents and I can't wait to meet the newest member of our growing family!
Plus you know you will never have any lack of dotting baby sitters waiting in the wings xx
That is truly magnificent news, congratulations!
I'm sorry to hear about the early complications and the bed rest, I hope everything goes smoothly from here on in.
Thank you guys, it's been so heartening to have so many people cheering us on.
Courts - that does help, thank you. I can't imagine how awful that must have been for your Mum. But as you say, she did win by getting you in the end ;) I think I might start billing this as "more hotly anticipated than Twilight 2, Bubble Baby: January 2010)
Claire - it's true, this little one will join an amazing family. And you better believe there will be frequent calls for babysitting!
Greenwords - thanks, we're also hoping that a (relatively) stressful start mean we'll have less drama coming up.
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